What if there is no such thing as falling in love?

Have you ever thought of this one single thing – what if this “story of falling in love” that you have been feeding yourself, was just a fake story?

What if there is really no such thing as falling in love?

What if the truth is that love is always surrounding you?

You often see it through the beauty of nature for they do not pinge your soft wounded parts like other humans do.

Whether you believe in it or not

Love is always surrounding you within without

 

There are those moments you meet people with whom you connect immediately, then there is this flowing flooding love.

You claim to have fallen in love with that one person. You celebrate this new connection. You name it soul connection.

What if the truth is, you have unconsciously choosen love in that moment in time?

What if the truth is, you have unconsciously tapped into love in that moment in time?

You do not fall in love, you choose love.

You choose out of millions of possible reasons.

What I am saying seems counter-intuitive and almost hurtful.

Who am I to dare to shatter this story of yours? A story of falling into love?

In my work as a life coach, I am ongoingly learning how everything about life is a choice, even the act of allowing love inside your space is a choice.

Hear my gentle whispers now:

You choose love everyday but most of the times, you do it unconsciously.

This very choice of yours tells a story of the Love Ocean you carry within

 

You choose love everyday but most of the times, you do it unconsciously.

This very choice of yours tells a story of how you can keep on feeling love for people despite all.

 

You choose love everyday but most of the times, you do it unconsciously.

This very choice of yours tells a story of how you are into love

Being into love is the essence of what which you are

What you are being asked to do from this moment onwards, is to bring the unconsciousness to your consciousness.

At this moment in time, you have choosen love for some aspects, some people, some situations, some instances, some things. And there are other  aspects, other people, other situations, other instances, other things, for which, for whom , you have choosen unlove.

If you pause enough – you will see your own story being told to you.

Yes there are inner conflicts right now, emerging wounds,pains, cringing cries.

These confuse and make you believe that love is something you fall in outside your space.

Love is a choice. Even walking away from that which affects your ecology is an act of love.

Love is always a choice.

You have made of it an unconscious choice. What if for now onwards, you start observing, seeing, hearing, hearing and sensing that which you are choosing?

Know that your ability to choose Love, tells a story of someone who already carries an Ocean of Love within.

This is your truth and this is your Story.

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Today my forest is dark and smoggy and the butterflies are gone…

What if you were taught and told that being sad, gloomy and down is part of life?

What if you were taught and told that inner conflicts are a healthy aspect of life, that aspect that ensures that growth is happening?

What if instead of labeling you as “depressed”, we would simply state that “you are currently going through a phase and you are to stay with it until you learn that which is seeking your attention”?

What if for one day, we choose to honor our diverse spectrum of emotions instead of running.

What if for today, we give our sadness a throne, not because we seek to be the eternal sad one but simply we choose to be human

Carl Jung said

“The word “Happiness” would not mean the same if it were not balanced by sadness”.

There is nothing wrong in being sad, in crying, in feeling pain. What is wrong is when one stays in that phase for far too long.

As much as we eat to stay alive, as much as breathing is essential for our life, so are the emotions that we carry.

Emotions either energize us or drain us.

Sadness plays its own role in our life. At times, sadness drains us – we all know this very well.

But sadness on it’s own is not a good or bad emotion, it is just an emotion. An emotion that tells us that somewhere something just did notgo accordingly to our expectations.

Sadness is this energy motioning through our body unto our life and then, things happen to us deeply.

Sadness heightened when we battle between whatever it is and whatever ought to have been.

And it is a normal reflex. It is just a phase until one learns to shift.

Shifting here means not just accepting things for what they are but rather owning responsibility for what one feels.  But acceptance happens only when you stay with whatever it is that is happening to you.

Next time, you are drowning in sadness be reminded that there is no need to haste your self into smiling; there is no need into trying to be positive.

Be reminded that nothing is wrong with you. Know that you have embarked on your learning path and one day all this will ease from your life.

Darkness is purposeful to the forest, while some sleep,rest and heal, others live,roam and sing.

If your forest is deep dark right now and all the butterflies are gone, know that this is purposeful, know that out of this darkness more life will emerge....

Know that a little bit more of you will emerge.

Know that there is nothing wrong in being sad.

You are being taught about your humaness, know that this process will support you in playing a bigger role unto this world.

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Know that you will have to dive into the transformative waters of life to get that which you want

“What do you want? Given you are here today, where do you see yourself five years down? What is your objective for asking for a meeting? What do want to explore in today’s conversation that will make a huge difference for you?”

And this drill down to specific and when we get specific into “whatever we want”, we start activating life within without.

There are instances in one’s life where getting specific can be challenging. I have been there, so have you.

A clarity conversation hence serves the purpose of getting you to move through your inner cloudiness.

Having an image, a movie, a feeling, a sound, a sense of what you want will in turn activate a process- unseen, unfelt and unheard by you , so that what you want moves closer to you each seconds.

At times, our intentions take years to manifest and some never happen. There are endless reasons for this.

The one obstacle that I often see with people that I have journeyed with is their own resistance to shifting and changing into a being aligned to that intention of theirs.

Setting intention, taking actions and keeping track of progress are unfortunately not enough. There is one truth, when you set an intention to be at a different place in a near future, you have to understand that you cannot be the same person in that future.

When you set an intention for a future, regardless of how close or near that future is, it summons life’s energy. This summoning does many things – it ensures that your intention manifests at maturation, provided you invest energy and passion and work for it but it also ensures that when that intention manifests, You the Seeker – is ready in the most appropriate form to embrace that manifestation.

For example: if you have an intention of becoming a Yoga Instructor. You start a training journey of a yoga teacher. But the person who sets that intention was not a yoga teacher. This phase of the journey reaches fruition when that person shifts physically, emotionally, energetically and mentally to become something aligned with the set intention.

Change, transformation and metamorphosis were and are inevitable part this journey.

Most of us suffer along our journey because we resist changes – we resist end of relationships, change in diets, living habits, thinking patterns and polluted beliefs.

We are living beings.  Seriously do you expect your physical, emotional, spiritual and soul space be the same when you reach that set intention?

When you set intentions be groundedly aware that change, transformation, metamorphosis are part of this process. You will have to sift and shift and elevate to embrace that manifested intention of yours. You will have to let go of beliefs, habits, people, places, things. It will feel, seem and sound chaotic but it will ease and cease eventually.

Know that you will have to dive into the transformative waters of life to get that which you want

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Own Your Story Own Your Mess

So You live with a VAMPIRE

Every morning you wake up praying that the VAMPIRE will turn to beetroot juice instead of your blood

And whole day you cry about the VAMPIRE’s appetite for your blood

Still you go to bed every night, praying that the VAMPIRE will turn to beetroot juice in the morning

A VAMPIRE’S job is to SUCK blood

And your job is to keep away from VAMPIRES unless you are yourself a VAMPIRE or you are a NINJA who can knock VAMPIRES off.

In the work that I do as a facilitator and a coach – there is this one striking element, people do not shift unless until they own their story, their path; unless until they own their share of responsibility in whatever is happening to them in their life. Owning your share of responsibility in whatever is happening to you, is just the beginning of.

The point is – it is easy to blame it on VAMPIRES, on the WORLD, on your PARENTS, on your PARTNER, on RELIGION, on your PAST, on your CATS, on the WEATHER but ultimately it is always about you.

Even if it feels painful and challenging – any awakened facilitator will magik in such a way that he/she will bring it back to YOU. YOU, as the CREATOR of YOUR LIFE.

Owning your share of responsibility in whatever is happening to you within without is the beginning of a new shift, the start of healing and a letting go of what no longer serves you.

SO PLEASE STOP AND CHECK:

Do you often blame others?

Do you expect others to change and to align with whatever you have in mind?

Do you feel you are a victim and the world out there is monstrous?

Do you feel that people often use and abuse you?

Please know that somewhere along the line, you may well not be owning your share of responsibility in whatever mess you are in right now. For ultimately, it is not about people but about you.

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Being in the Present Moment.......

You have all heard this one fatal phrase “Be in the Present Moment”.

For those of who have roamed enough in meditation groups, this one phrase must have been chanted to you over and over again. No doubt, you are endless who have wondered what is it that you are doing wrong for you are unable to be in the “present moment”, the way our teachers speak of.

I have tried endless techniques not to think of the past, of the future and yes, I went through endless rituals of “letting go”.

Then, I screwed my brains by declaring “self-dumbness”.

I have been there too until something clicked.

Being in the present moment does not mean forgetting about the past or not thinking of that future

Being in the present moment does not mean using some positive jargonic tools to camouflage any discomfort any fear any pains and any uncertainties

And being in the present moment does not mean using some hyper-advanced breathing technique to whoosh out that which dis-eases you

Being in the present moment means accepting things

for what they are in this moment in time

You may be trying hard to change jobs

You may be waiting for that one specific thing to happen and it has been a long wait

You may be in love and nothing is happening

You may be longing for some other lands

Maybe you do not know what is next

Maybe you are worried from this unknowingness

Being in the present moment means being with that which is happening in your space

Some things make us want to storm away

Some things make us rejoice in life

Being in the present moment means accepting things for what they are right now

With the awareness that as life evolves, seasons come and go, so will those things

Things will change, come what may

Things always change

How come things change when we are in the present moment?

Things start to shift as you grow into being in the present moment,

As you grow into acceptance, you are no more wasting your energy in resisting,

in being angry, in being sad and in being mad

You become grounded and as your groundedness deepens

Things start to shift when you grow into that state of acceptance.

A state is a deep rooted mind-body experience and your entire experience of anything is indicated by your state.

A state can be defined as - "what we feel, what's on our mind and what we feel an urge to do."

It is up to you to define what acceptance means, how acceptance looks like, how acceptance feels and how acceptance sounds.

Then use that state of acceptance strategically

When you are in your state of acceptance, you are no more struggling to shut off parts of your life.

You are just here, knowing that this is how things are right now right here.

Hence, there is no useless waste of energy, there is no struggle.

It is this very state of acceptance that will fuel your next steps.

It is through this very state that you will start plotting your next steps to shifting your life.

That state of acceptance can be used strategically to bring more awareness to you

What is working against you right now?

What is working in partnership with you right now?

What is the worst possible scenario?

Let’s plan now

We all need support and guidance to grow into our awareness. Even coaches are coached ongoingly, even coaches need ongoing support.

While you struggle with your present moment, pause and think about it – "what difference would it make to your life if you gave yourself permission to be supported and coached?"

What difference will it make your life to grow in your present moment?

In your present moment, with a heightened awareness that as life evolves, seasons come and go, so will those things

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The Future is made of the same stuff as the Past. – Jose Carleton

Your Past, Your Present and Your future is of one constant and that one constant is YOU.

YOU are that VERY STUFF that will make up YOUR FUTURE.

What it means is simple, if you keep doing what you have always done, you will keep getting what you have always gotten. The world does not change but you change. You make that choice to shift and as you shift and transform, so do your inner world. A shifted inner world brings out a completely different experience of the external world.

But how does one shift? How does one ever come to a stage where one grows in awareness that there’s a need to shift? How does one do that? But most importantly why does one do that? What is the need to shift, if ever there is such a need?

In coaching, we spend hours digging with the coachee. We go to the core to uncover along with the coachee – patterns, programs, beliefs, values, rules, agreements, relationships, identity, intentions, expectation and remembering. (We do more than that but I am keeping it simple right now)

A person is more than just his/her inner beliefs, values, rules, agreements, relationships, identity, intentions, expectation, remembering. But still, the amount of energy that that person invests in his/her beliefs, values, rules, agreements, relationships, identity, intentions, expectation and remembering, carry the potential to shape his/her world.

“Your life GROWS where you INVEST.”

 

So where are you investing right now?

Tell me more about your investment? Describe it to me? Help me understand so that I better hold space for you.

Show me how you do that investment?

If I were to get into the theatre of your mind – what will I see, feel and hear?

Is that investment supporting your growth? How do you know this investment is supporting your growth? What evidence do you have?

Are you confused? Did I confuse you?

Then let’s simplify things. Tell me about your self-talks.

What stories do you tell yourself? When you are with you in those moments in time, what words do use to talk to yourself? What do believe about yourself? What do you believe about this world? What do you believe about life?

Define growth for me. What do you believe about growth? What do you value about growth?

Are your self-talks adding value to your life/growth?

Are your beliefs supporting you to grow?

What pieces of evidence do you have as you answer each of these questions?

If that which you are doing right now is not supporting your growth, what are you deciding about it? What are you choosing to do? Remember it is all about you. You are the one Constant of Your Past, Your Present and Your Future.

Do you want to keep doing the same?

Fair enough, then remember

“Your life GROWS where you INVEST.”

 

Your present will be become your Past.

You hold the POWER to be

your “KIND OF STUFF” stepping into that future.

 

Someone who steps into a coaching relationship does so with a specific objective geared towards a future. Keeping limited beliefs, unhealthy habits, unresourcefulness drain the energy and life out of your life. Most of the time, we go through life with much unawareness but as you grow into a little of your own awareness, it is becomes almost sinful to shut off to this life living within you.

Choices and decisions scare us for we hold no clue to a future future. There’s one undeniable truth, as you invest in opening up to what resonates to you, your life deepens and lightens, things that no longer serve you start living your space. Yes, you lose relationships, things, materials, places and spaces. But you lose all that no longer serves you.

Your Past, Your Present and Your future is of one constant and that one constant is YOU.

 

YOU are that VERY STUFF that will make up YOUR FUTURE.

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How can We find out who We are?

No coach, no Guru, no Book, no Religion, no God, no One can answer.

You will have to find out who you are. You are more than this humanness for sure.

And if you want to start somewhere, then start by letting go of :

THAT WHICH is FAKE

THAT WHICH ASKS  of you SO MUCH EFFORTS that it DRAINS YOU

THAT WHICH ASKS of you TO WALK, TALK, LIVE, ROAM in ways that BETRAYS YOUR ESSENCE.

How to find that “THAT WHICH”?

You already know that “THAT WHICH”

They are those very things that you TRY HARD TO CONTROL

They are those very things that are NOT TRUE TO YOUR NATURAL RHYTHMS.

And as you let go of “THAT WHICH” is not aligned to your natural rhythms, SOME THINGS START HAPPENING.

You start happening.

It will scare you, it will even hurt you

For you will lose Fakedness, Masks, Relationships, Materials and much more.

And as you start losing, part of you will try to hang on – you have been used to them, it’s just a reflex – nothing more.

And as you keep on that path, your destiny will open up to you.

A destiny that moves beyond this society’s prescriptions of what is right and wrong.

A destiny that connects you to your truest.

For The Unfolding of your Destiny, you have to start that journey to letting of “THAT WHICH” which is not YOU.

 

It feels, it hears, it sounds and it even looks scary but truth be, it is not for because  “THAT WHICH” is a scary thing , for “THAT WHICH” is that ought to have no place and space within without your world.

No coach, no Guru, no Book, no Religion, no God, no One can answer.

You will have to brave through this darkness and wave your heart through ..

This is a journey that belongs solely to you.

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Won't you open up

Won’t you open up to friendship my beloved?

We know you are struggling to trust

We know not much was given to you to trust

Yet not every man who moves close to you, will violate your boundaries

Won’t you open up your space my sacred one?

We know you have been bruised bad

We know you are holding on to your boundaries

Yet not every man who bows down to you, wants of your flesh

Won’t you open up to sweet words my love?

We know you have been shaken

We know your entire being in on alert

Yet not every man who compliments you, dreams of tearing your sacredness

Won’t you open up to love my precious one?

We know you are scared

We know you are holding on to your weary heart

Yet not every man who hums to you , sees you as some lustious meat

In a world where human beings have distorted the image of masculinity, 

women are scared to flow freely.

In a world where intimacy equates to sexual violation, 

women’s hearts are oozing fears instead of love

In a world where men are hurting from their blurred understanding of that which makes “a man”, women are fiercely closing up

Sisters, Mothers, Daughters, no matter what, regardless of all,

Keep your hearts open

Keep your hearts open for the sake of love, for the sake of life,

For the sake of the sacredness that leads within you

More than ever we need your openness

To awake the Sacred Warriors in Men

Those who will hum sacredness back into this world,

Into me, you and us……

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He will never ...........

To you precious ones, you who so often forget that there is much more than this detailed list of yours. This same list that you work on so diligently and faithfully in that one coaching session “that which you are seeking in your life partner”

Truth be, He is human and he will surely match and he will surely mismatch that which you are seeking

He rides his own shitty waves….

He will never match the one you drew of

He will be his beauty

You will have to learn to see beyond his skin

He will never communicate the way you expect of him

His silence will be stoned, still he will commune

You will have to learn to wave through the heart’s rhythms

He will never console the way you want of him

He will be that one vertebrate through your tides

You will have to learn to trust his steed

He will never open up the way you want him to

He will ooze his love through his beingness

You will have to learn to embrace his songs

He will never be

He will never commune to

He will never respond to

He will never equate to

That one profile on your endless list

He is riding his waves

He is own Kind of Kind

Cradle his Beigness or

Set him free for Someone who will commune to his Kind of Kind

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#Nyame_Dua

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Be Gentle with Your Heart – Your Preciousness is Emerging

 

Some of us will walk a path that tears us apart until we grow – a painful agonizing growth.

All growths do not have to be painful and all pains do not have to be agonizing.

Yet for some of us, it will deeply agonizing, for this is how we will finally learn to open up to life.

For some of us the path will be deeply shifting, for we will be called to let go of all the domestication and give way to that which is within to emerge.

We carry so much fakedness, we carry embedded fears – FEAR of DIFFERENCES, FEAR of the UNKNOWN, FEAR of the DARK, FEAR of LOVE.

The agony will come from that lack of love.

Love is not vicious; Love is not demeaning;

Love is not demanding; Love is certainly not narcissist

Love is just love.

When the agony steps in, it’s your own truth to love that makes you cry, for deep within you know that love speaks of another language, for deep within you know that all this is not real.

Love embraces; Love does not judge, love just be;

Love is patient for Love knows that one day we will tip

And we make a choice to LOVE or to DIE.

This path of yours is no easy. You have a choice, to keep going, or to step aside or to stay in the past.

Whatever you choose, it will grow your self into something.

Step aside and you will eventually rot. 

You will rot every possibility to growth, people, learning and to love.

Stay in the past, you will rot. 

You will rot every possibility to growth, people, learning and to love.

Keep going, you will rot. 

You will rot that which do not serve you anymore

You will rot of people, place, things, relationships, teachers,

teachings, every inches that do not serve you anymore.

And as the decaying deepens, nature will take over. This is the cycle of life, nature serving it’s purpose through you. Nature alchemizing magic through you as you grow into something less.

But this will not be an easy process, for you will hang on to that which used to be familiar – people, places place, things, relationships, teachers, teachings, every inches that used to be you.

If you are hurting right now, know that a huge part has to do with you hanging out.

And your forgetting of your own nature essence dis-serves you. It’s a cyclical life, that which are being taken away from you, will be replaced back by something way beyond, unknown to Divine at times.

It seems unfair because elevation and growth do not necessary

Happen according to our plans.

But plans do change, magic do shift, anything is possible.

So while you rot, keep this faith that everything will regrow from you - place, things, relationships, teachers, teachings, every inches.

This while, the growth will happen from within.

For once, forget about the deadlines, you are and you shall forever be a work in progress. There is no such thing as self-mastery, this rotting, this growing, this path happens in and through layers and through phases.

You are precious for this world way beyond your understanding.

Be gentle with your heart

Growth is happening

Be gentle with your self

Growth is no easy game

Be gentle

Your Preciousness is coming to Life

More than ever you need more of your gentleness

 

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My story leads, My story crafts, My story opens, My story heals.

I did not choose to here. My story led me to you in this moment in time.

I did not choose to be what I am. My story crafted that which I am in this moment in time.

I did not choose my dreams. My story opened the way through the unknown for this now.

I did not choose healing. My story healed my achedness for this now.

My story leads, My story crafts,

My story opens, My story heals.

But it was and is no easy path for this little frightened bruised heart that I was , that I am.

We all have bit and parts of us that we love most; that we exhibit most; that we water most; that we beam most.

We all have bits and parts of us that we conceal most; that we blot out most; that we alter most; that we hide most.

I have them too.

"Those childhood memories; that lover who crack you open; those moments where you felt not enough; that one endless argument with your mother; those friends that walked away never once to turn back; those dark nights; those bruises; those broken bones; those unshed tears."

 

I have them too. You have them too. We have them too.

Choosing them was not a choice. Choosing that which I concealed most, blotted out most, altered most and hidden most – was not my choice.

The truth is I have spent years running and my story has spent years chasing me. We have had this one strong Chaser-Runner relationship.

She chased harder and I ran harder.  Then there came a time when I triumphed and celebrated the mastering of the runner pace, overjoyed for I had knocked off my story. A short celebration, for soon I was standing on that cliff. A mere whoosh would have tripped me off from life. That moment, I stood in knowingness that I was dying, everything within without was fading of its life.

“If we are dying, let’s die knowing that we have tried. Come what may, I will keep calling your name until you come back home to me.”, whispered my story

One Whisper, One Shiver, One Heart Beat and I took the way back home to my story.

I stopped running. A move that brought to my awareness aching muscles, cranking bones, strained pulses, shallow breaths, racing heart, blistered soles.

From then on, I would wake up every day to one story. It would be me and my story, naked intimacy, heart to heart, pains to pains, tears to tears.

Agonizing paralysis, me with that concealed most, blotted out most, altered most and hidden most of me.

And She hummed (she still does):

"How can you lead when you conceal, blot out, alter and hide from that which is you?

How can you become when you conceal, blot out, alter and hide from that which is you?

How can you dream when you conceal, blot out, alter and hide from that which is you?

How can you heal when you conceal, blot out, alter and hide from that which is you?"

A trance that would last until we would come to an embrace; until that story would reveal her beauty to my beauty; until that story would lead me to my alchemist; until that story would whisper her secrets to my secrets.

For the last seven years, I have been waking up every day to this simple process and I still do.

Not like I am done with my runner and chaser game – it still comes up. Compulsion!

But it does not last for long and I certainly do not reach that cliff anymore.

“We all have bits and parts of us that we conceal most; that we blot out most; that we alter most; that we hide most.

Choosing them is hardly ever a willing choice. Yet choosing them is the only way out of this agony. Choosing them is choosing you. Your story will lead, Your story will craft, Your story will open, Your story will heal. Your story will gift you with your deepest essence. You story will gift you to you. This is your way to wholeness”

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My Little Life

When I looked back at what I did and where I have been through.

It feels like many lives already. It feels like I have constantly been paving my own path despite the fact that there was already a pre-defined plan for me.

A corporate job with a heavy package, a marriage with a home, a “yes daughter” to all.

Yet I just kept moving from them all.

I have no idea why except that my little heart knew there was more to this little life of mine.

Not like I was not afraid, I was and I was not great at articulating my woundedness unless until I had alchemized them.

I am still not good at it.

 

So people in my space never quite understood this swirling of mine. They still don’t. My stubbornness took it over and I kept going even through the bruises.

It feels like I have been using my free will without being aware of it for years.

It has been a path loaded with choices and consequences. I have been glorified and I have also been cursed by others. Not like, I did not poison my self with what others were saying about me. I did but eventually but I have learned to just mind my path and not make agreements with what others think of me and about me. And I am still learning that though.

Right now at this moment, pausing to look into that which I have become, I will say that I am simply more of that little dreamy girl who soaked for hours with her little heart buried in words.

I have become more of that little one with wings on her legs, hearts in her eyes and magic in her laughter and cheekiness in her arms

I have become more of that my dreams.

Maybe the truth is, my dreams have bestowed endless blessings unto me.

Maybe the lesson was simply this:

“Yes there is a pre-defined plan for us. Most of us shall live our lives through that pre-defined plan too afraid to venture outside. Then once in a while someone will rise above this plan for the sake of her/her heart’s dreams. This rising will teach that person about the gift of free-will. And as that person grows into awareness of this gift, that person will be taught to fight for it. For the only way to mastering this gift is by putting it into use.... "

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